So for the months of November and December I was in therapy, and I was learning to relax, and then I found out that I had been accepted into the IVF study in Philly starting early January. Although tempted to blog about my 2nd IVF, I just couldn't. I had found a new peace that I was so afraid would be shattered if I went back to the daily detailing of every blood draw and ultrasound, examining every number for hope or the dashing of hope.
Instead I approached it like it was a mini-vacation (I stayed at a hotel down there for about half the time). I had to get up early and show up for my daily wanding, but otherwise I didn't let it occupy my mind at all. It was... dare I say it... relaxing. Snowy. But a nice break from my routine.
About 8 days past my retrieval (5dp3dt) I started getting cramping like my period was going to start. It was early for that and I started to think that I was either going to get my period early or that my body had found a new way to be broken. After 4 days of the cramps getting worse and worse I broke down and bought HPTs.
This is what I saw at 9dp3dt:
You can barely see it but yes, there is a 2nd line.
Yesterday we went in for our beta (15dp3dt): 785.
It's weird for me to write this but it looks like we're pregnant.
I had honestly convinced myself that it couldn't happen.
I am of course nervous because it's still early, but I didn't want to keep this from all of you, who have been such an amazing support system for me for over a year now, any longer.
So, am I back to blogging? I don't know... Any big events that happen I will post about because you guys deserve to know. But other than that I may continue to be quiet for a while. Or maybe not! I'm just not sure yet.
Finally, I'd like to extend a big heartfelt congratulations to these ladies who have just gotten their BFPs, too:
A at Remember All the Way (approx. 4 weeks 8 days today)
Erika at Pollination Chronicles (approx. 4 weeks 5 days today)
Secret Sloper at Park Slope Purgatory (approx. 4 weeks 6 days today)
Nicole at Lesbo Parents to Be (approx. 4 weeks 2 days today)